This is day 2/182 and as I move around the Chinatown office, I feel like I am a dead man walking. I am sure only a couple of people noticed since I have not publicly announced my departure. I just feels strange knowing that there is a date in the future when all these will end and I enter a strange and unfamiliar phase in my life when I will not have a job title, no calling cards to handout to new people I meet. Maybe I should update my personal calling card as a safety blanket!
I have been in corporate environments for 30 years and while it is fulfilling and financially-rewarding, it is at the same time stifling! The mantra is: the customer is always right! No matter how wrong they are and how unreasonable they are, they are customers and they are always right. It is a real struggle not to lose oneself in such an environment.
As I try to recall who I was 30 years ago, when I graduated from university, with academic honors with a clear and direct path to corporate success, I can still see that person inside me even after all the compromises and the blending in. I am not that person anymore but at the same time, I am still that person.